My week started off the same as so many of my training weeks had but has ended quite differently. Tuesday morning, I received the dreaded email, notifying all UltraMan athletes that the event has been cancelled and our registrations have been rolled over to 2021. I must say it didn’t hit me straight away, it took about an hour to sink in, then a knot started to form in my stomach then I felt gutted and numb, there were also a few tears. Obviously, I knew it was most likely going to happen, but you still cling to the hope that everything will be fine. With so many months of training under my belt, with every week being planned meticulously so that I can fit in my training around my work and family life, to allow my focus to be set on achieving my UltraMan 2020 goal – to then nothing. The mental toughness in the first place to decide to enter the event, and to believe that I could do it, and to then keep pushing through each week, knowing that I was building my base for bigger and better things – to then nothing just gutted and numb. My pity party lasted about 24 hours, I pigged out on popcorn and had Indian for dinner, talked with my fellow Ultraman wannabes, Chris and Markcus who were both gutted, and also Kaz, my new UMOZ friend from afar, sending each other comforting messages of support. With so many events being cancelled on the same day, and knowing that life was about to change for every single person, it was time to move on, there is nothing I can do to change the circumstances, I can only change the things that I control, and that is my attitude and focus.
In my 12 weeks of training for the event I have so much to be grateful for, I am grateful that my body has allowed me to achieve an amazing level of fitness, I don’t think I have ever been in such great shape. I have been able to go out on long training rides, most often in the hills and work on my climbing and descending. None of this will go to waste, it will build my base for future cycling challenges. I have learned to love running, which has always been my weakness, with so many weeks of running at the botanical gardens or at Dookie rather than on a flat run course, this has definitely improved my run fitness, and in turn making it more enjoyable. Swimming on the other hand had started to become a little bit of a drag, not so much the swim sessions at the pool, more the long swim sessions in the lake, even though I could swim in my wetsuit, I found it harder to stay focussed while swimming. I guess this is something I can work on when I need to do those long sessions again. I am grateful for my training buddies, who were always so positive and encouraging and who were also going to be crewing for me in May, even though 2 of them, Wendy and Scott were going to be doing their own races the week before at Port Macquarie. Helen, who was going to miss Mothers Day with her family to come to Noosa and crew for me. Pam and Stacey, who were also going to make the trip up to Noosa, just to be there and support me, Fiona who was going to attend the event to run with me on the final day. I am so grateful to all of them for committing to the event and committing to me. Of course, I am grateful for Jason, without his guidance and support I would not know where to start or how to train for an event like UltraMan. Most importantly though, I am grateful for my health, years ago I was on the verge of being a diabetic and had been prescribed medications to stop this. I found that with healthy eating and activity I have no health issues at all. Of course, with this current crisis going on in the world, this will hopefully put me in a good stead over the coming months. So, with my focus now changed, my goal is to get done whatever I feel like over the next few months or should I say whatever is achievable in the current situation that is so fluid. At the moment, I can swim in the lake, still go out for a run, ride my bike and mountain bike, whatever I like really, as long as it is permissible. It will also give me the chance to work on my core strength, so all is not lost.
Today we went to Violet Town to ride the hills again, I decided after I had started the ride that I was going to have a red hot go and give the climbs my best effort, after all, I had months of training, so why not achieve something. Happy to report that my ride today was a PB on the climb, PB on the loop and I managed to chick Scotty on the loop by 2 minutes!! All is definitely not lost.
Thank you to all the people that have been following my journey since December, for the messages of encouragement and support, all of these words have helped to fuel my drive. I hope that someone has been inspired to believe that they too can achieve a goal, whether it be big or small. Stay safe everyone.




































